Happy S.A.D.

"Happy Singles Awareness Day!"

This is how a friend started my morning yesterday. Think about it...it's pretty true. I walked into work early and ran into a flower delivery guy. He asked if I knew the person receiving the flowers, had me sign for them and deliver them to her desk. As the day progressed there was more chatter about flowers and evening plans. I'm aware everyday that I am single. But every other day it's not in my face everywhere I look, or it doesn't seem to be. I'm not bitter. I am excited for all my friends that are part of a couple...I just really want to be one of them sooner than later.

I hate the singles cliche "God's my boyfriend", or whatever it is...the sentiment is the same. I don't like how stupid it sounds when I try to say it out loud. He is the love of my life and always will be. As much as I hate being single...and I do. I also love that God shows up in ways for me because He knows my heart's longings and He loves me that much.

I absolutely HATE getting my oil changed. I despise going. I hate driving into the place with the open floor, afraid I won't get my wheels in the right place. I hate the smell. I hate the way they recommend all of the extras and that they charge so much for them. I hate that I don't know if I should take their recommendations. Does my car's fuel system really need to be flushed? Does my car even have one of those things they tell me I need to replace? I'm going to admit it, I go past my 3,000 miles regularly. I put it off because I hate it. Anyway...I had to go yesterday. It couldn't wait any longer. To top it off it's Valentines Day. (This whole oil change business is something I hope to pass off when I am married. This may sound odd, but for my adult life I've been taking care of everything myself. I believe one of the benefits of marriage is the two of you get to share the responsibilities and take on things you are better at than your spouse, and maybe even enjoy doing. Who knows if it actually will work out like this...I just hope to find out one day.) So I have to do something I hate on Valentines Day, and to top it off it's something that reminds me that I'm very single. I do not know why, but about half way through the oil change one of the guys asked me if someone had given me a rose. To which I replied, "Are you kidding, would I be getting my oil changed if I had someone in my life to give me a rose?" Well, not really... actually I said "No" to which I received a long stemmed red rose. It's beautiful! I don't care that it came from a guy who works at Valvoline, and I don't even know his name.

I love when God does things that I cannot explain away...like a rose at Valvoline on Singles Awareness...uh...Valentines Day.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006