too much to ask for?

A friend recently told me she thought I would be good for this guy I like, which I loved to hear because it confirms my thoughts too. As if someone else’s confirmation makes a promise that heaven cannot deny. Unfortunately for my happy ever after fantasy, my head wouldn’t let me stay there and instead of picking out wedding flowers and baby names I found myself thinking, “of course I would be good for him...I would be good for anyone”. My internal voice is not always nice to myself and I’m not prone to extreme self-confidence, so this outburst really struck me. The question that truly needed an answer is what kind of guy would be good for me?

Another friend once said he was looking for the yin to his yang, so am I. Life for me is a journey of self discovery...continually striving to become a stronger person. I long to share the journey with another. Someone who complements me, and I don't mean someone who tells me I look beautiful (although hopefully that will happen too). Like complementary colors, someone who brings out the best in me and someone I can bring out the best in. Someone who's weakness are my strengths and vice-versa. I hope for someone who makes me a stronger person, challenges me and teaches me. Someone who I can do the same for. My heart doesn't long for someone like myself...mostly it longs for someone completely different (with a lot of patience) who will show me things from a different perspective with new eyes. A bit of a mystery who I'll never completely figure out. Someone who will give me the key to those inner places where very few have gone before. I long to venture there with tenderness, kindness, and love. To find the treasure and beauty hidden inside. I want someone who will do the same for me, carefully wiping off the layers of dust that has gathered on the fragile parts of my heart that have been locked away. Someone who's touch can bind the broken pieces left scattered over the ground by others in their haste to leave.

"What we actually need is real love, born when two real people recognize, accept, and tend to each other's imperfections."

Is that too much to ask for?