It is a task of my job to open all mail that is addressed to my company but not to an actual person; I read countless stories from people called by God to be recording artist. Such a deep noble desire to do what God has called you to…but how do you know? Proclaiming you have been told by God and telling others of His intentions for you life…is that what it looks like?
I’ve been thinking about the process of being ordained as a priest…not for myself…but as a calling. Ordination…God ordained (ordained: 1-to command formally 2-to order or establish something formally, especially by law or by some other authority.) Maybe if we took our calling more seriously as someone called to the priesthood does…we wouldn’t go around putting our desires on God. Maybe we would go around asking God what His desires are. We’ve become egocentric and that bible verse about the desires of our hearts (psalm 37:4) and the words of Augustine, "love God and do what you want" have become strangely warped.
I have no idea how I got here…10 years later. For 5 years I worked out my calling in fear and trembling. 5 years of trying to figure out what God had in store for me. No idea how, when, or even if he would redeem the desire he planted in my heart to work in the Christian Music Industry. I think this is where He called me because 5 years later I’m still working in it at a job, on most days, I was created to do. But I sometimes wonder if He used that desire more to put me in a situation where I had to complete rely on Him where He could show me His faithfulness. A place where the mystery pushed in hard to my reality, where I could only walk by faith, because I had no idea where the path was leading me. If I’m completely honest…on most days I still don’t know where the path is leading me…other than the final destination. The real calling is to follow him, to grow in my desire for him and His desire for my life. He uses people everywhere doing everything.
One of my favorite songs that became an anthem for my life when I was working out all the fear of saying goodbye to a life I had built up in order to start completely new in Nashville.
Do I Dare: David Wilcox
You ask me if I’m faithful, You ask me if I’m true
I answer with a question cause it’s all that I can do.
Do I dare believe and let love lead my life?
Could I not believe and leave this love behind?
Do I dare believe and let love lead my life?
Could I not believe and leave this love behind?
I don’t have all the answers I can’t explain it all
I don’t know where I’m going but I think I hear a call…
Do I dare believe and let love lead my life?
Could I not believe and leave this love behind?
Do I dare believe and let love lead my life?
Could I not believe and leave this love behind?
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