undone

Recently I’ve been untying my attachments to the things I so desperately want that I have not been given. Asking God to help me cultivate a heart that is open to what He may or may not give me. I think I know what's good for me, and I may, but I know He knows more than what's good for me. He knows what's best for me and what I need in order to grow into the woman He designed me to be. It is a place I've longed to find and I'm being cautious to make sure it's actually where I am, not where I think I am. It's sort of like making the steep climb for the breath taking view. (Along the way I've stopped short many times thinking "what a great view") When you reach the top you forget about all the work you've done to get there. Some things that have happened in the past month almost seem insignificant, but 5 years ago even the thought was more than I could have dealt with. He is diligent and complete and He knows me. He has been gracious, loving and thorough in healing my heart. Never forcing me beyond where I was ready to go, but patiently waiting for me.

“It would seem that our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.”
C.S. Lewis – Mere Christianity